About Hope...or a better light on things...

A long time ago I read on a book about metaphysics that HOPE is not good. How so? Well, for a person to have hope in something means that they have a certain degree of doubt, which means that they lack faith. And lack of faith is along the same lines of Fear which is the opposite of Faith. If you really think about it then it makes sense, because if you have total Faith in something, then you don't need to have HOPE in it. Hope is like a wish, a desire for things to turn around for the better, and it is not FAITH of things to be better...Is something to think about...

Today it was a better day, I started to see some light at what seems to be the end of a tunnel that I've been crawling in... This morning I saw my neighbor Tony and I tell him about how someone messed my car and I have made the decision to give up my car... He tells me that I could take it into the Junker half a block away and to tell them that Tony sent me... So he gets some of the kids from the block to go into my car through my trunk and open the door for me so that I don't have to do it. And then I head out to the junker and they are very nice and tell me that they buy a lot of repossessed cars in auctions and stuff and that they sell them back and that if I wanted they could give me a good deal on a used car. So there it was! I could possibly get a better car from this...

Tomorrow I'll go and check what kind of cars they have and then I will see what steps I'll take after that...

I like when things get brighter! :)

About Teenagers and Respect...and cars...

Well, ok, I'm not sure if it was a teenager, but even though I am stereotyping or assuming, it is really difficult for me to believe that a grown person could have done this...
What am I referring to? Well... a few month's ago I was on my way to work and when I get to my car (a 1988 Volvo 240DL - that I bought for $500 on craigslist a little more than a year ago - It's a piece of crap but it takes me places) I try to put my key in and it doesn't work. After close inspection I notice that someone had apparently put a screw driver in the key hole and messed with it, making it impossible to open the driver's side door. I am pissed! I though to myself that maybe someone tried to steal my car. But then I think...who would want to steal a piece of s**t like that? It's so old, the radio only plays cassette tapes... the seats are broken, there's nothing of value in it. Who would want to steal it? I talk to some kids who mention that the same thing happened to a different car from another lady in the neighborhood... Who would do that?!!!
My car is so old and crappy and only the front doors have key lock, so that meant that I had to enter my car through the passenger side evry morning. Mecanics told me that I had to go to a junker to get a replacement if I wanted to fix it. I've put it off, just like I've put off fixing many of the other issues that my 21 year old car has, like the fact that the 2 side stop lights don't light up, and it's not a lightbulb but the holder of the light or however that is called...which many mechanics have told me can only be fixed by going to a junkyard...
Also, my car's battery has the tendency of de-charging (is that the right word?) so I have to unhook the battery after I park it so that the next morning it still has charge, that's why I carry a wrench with me at all times... and the mechanics don't kow what the problem is, and the machine that they could hook up to the car to find out doesn't hook up to my car because the car is so OLD that the hooks are different...And the trunk door won't stay open and the hood release it's kinda odd...it's hard to explain.... but you know what? this crappy car is my car, and I use it to go to work, and do all my work related errands like going to the post office and the bank and all this stuff...
But today... oh, today as I walk toward my car and try to put my key on the passanger door key hole I find that someone had messed with the only other keyhole in my car's doors!! I was so pissed!!! I was like..HOW THE F*** AM I GOING TO GET INTO MY CAR NOW?!!!!!!
And then it hit me! The Trunk! So I had to crawl into my car from the car's trunk! In front of some people that where doing some work on the sidewalk! I was so embarassed and pissed! And my car's inspection expires in 2 days!! So I decided I'm going to get rid of my car in 2 days! I ain't crawling through my car's trunk for more than 2 days!
What pisses me off the most is that probably some teenagers did this, JUST FOR FUN!!!! Because there was nothing that they could take out of the car! Nothing they could steal! So what's the point of doing this? I mean I can't, for the life of me think of a good reason to do this kind of thing! I just imagine a bunch of kids/delinquents, just laughing and doing this sort of thing to cars, without thinking about their own mothers and their own cars...I have a baby car seat on my car!!!! Have some respect!!!!! DAMN IT!!!

I don't know! Thanks to all those delinquent a-holes that messed with my car!!!!
Hope you learn the value of other people's property soon enough!

Hope tomorrow is a better day!